A Look Back On My Thoughts: An Open Letter To Cindy Anthony -- Original Post Date: May 13, 2009

After Cindy and George appeared on Larry King Live Wednesday May 13, 2009, I was compelled to write this open letter to Cindy that night.

Original Post date was May 13, 2009.
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Cindy Anthony:

Your statement on Larry King tonight (5.13.09) infuriates me to a point that is greater than I have been during this entire fiasco regarding your daughter Casey.

If Caylee's death - which in my opinion was caused by the hands of your daughter Casey - were not so tragic, the entire story would be a blockbuster comedy. The best of Hollywood screenwriters could not have written this script. I can only imagine what is yet to come. What Casey lacked, you certainly made up for, by making a total mockery of your entire family and the memory of your beautiful granddaughter, Caylee. Your tirades are despicable and each time you open your mouth, the entire nation expects you to lie.

How do you as a mother live - for two years - unknowing as to what her daughter is doing? Greater than that, how did you not have an idea of what Casey was capable of doing? No mother I know is that blind.

Regarding bloggers, you say you do not know them, nor if they have children and do not know why they fault you.

You say you believe and I quote, "..bloggers want to find fault with everything . They need to use that energy for something positive like I am, you know (sic)".

I will tell you who I am. I am a stay at home mother with two teen daughters. They are my pride and joy, the reason I am alive, above all, they are the beautiful in my life. I am a two time cancer survivor, although fighting cancer again. I am a widow of 5 years. Unfortunately, I know more than someone my age needs to know about life, only because I lived and learned it at an early age. I am very knowledgeable about "unconditional love", and know a great deal about a love that is much greater than that, "tough love"-- a love that you should have learned for Casey long ago. There is a reason the bloggers are not fans of you. You are shallow and transparent, just like your daughter. Casey is but a reflection of you and you of Casey, to an extent.

I surround myself with positive people, places, and situations. That is my coping mechanism. I do not hide in the confines of my home. I started blogging long ago to share instances in my life,wonderful memories, and to bond with others that walk the same path as I. My journaling/blogging began with my second pregnancy, when the internet was new, fun and exciting. I met so many wonderful women who shared like experiences.

That blog grew into the chronicling of my daughters' lives and their milestones. I then began to use blogging as an outlet when I found out my husband was a substance abuser. I turned to new found friends for help and information, not only for him, but mainly for me and how to cope. Most of those friends I had become acquainted with on the internet. As in 'real life' the internet is a wide world of people who are walking alongside us on the same path in life. Seek and you shall find.

I blogged when I first was told I had cancer. I blogged about the treatments and progress and then finally remission.

I blogged about the sudden death of my husband and how it was to suddenly become a single mother with two small daughters.

I blogged about not being able to find my nephew one morning, only to then to blog later in the day about the horror of his suicide after his older brother sadly and tragically found him dead inside a car.

I have blogged about my second cancer, a surgery that was supposed to "fix me". I then blogged about "mets" and how my cancer had spread. I blogged during several chemo treatments, and still do to this day.

I have blogged about my daughters' achievements and how they have grown before my eyes.

I do not recall, however, blogging about finding fault with anyone. If anything, during the worst of times, the common theme seemed to be that I placed blame on myself. A loyal reader once noticed and helped me see that all the bad that had happened in my life was not due to any fault of mine, nor because of anything that I did or didn't say or do. Nor was it the fault of anyone else. It is just 'life' and we must deal the hand we are dealt.

I chose to take my personal blog and blog about your daughter Casey and the disappearance of your granddaughter, Caylee. We, as America, were and remain, mesmerized by Caylee's beautiful smile and gorgeous big brown eyes.

When Caylee was first reported as kidnapped, we were horrified. The community of bloggers I know were even more horrified, terrified, and disgusted when we learned your daughter did not report Caylee missing after thirty one days and could possibly be behind this tragedy.

Yes, Cindy, we bloggers are mothers and grandmothers. We are sisters and daughters.And most of us are friends.  We take time away from our daily lives to search for the truth in this horrific story of a  beautiful little girl gone before her time.


The Caylee Bloggers are positive people. At this moment, other than the prosecution, we are the only ones publicly keeping Caylee's memory alive. We want --and demand-- the truth to be known.

We can not begin to understand you. Perhaps it is because we all see what you choose not to see. You do not appear to be a grieving grandmother. I do not see you behind closed doors, yet when you are in front of the camera, you definitely do not appear to be grieving.  What a total ass you made of yourself at the deposition at John Morgan's office.  Did you show those actions you portrayed  in the presence of Caylee? People who have nothing to hide do not present themselves in that manner.  Even more, ladies do not present that way. Show a little class, please.

You say bloggers find fault with everything and everyone. Look in the mirror Cindy, you seem to be describing yourself.

You have not helped your cause by changing your stories, "half-truths" and out-right lying to protect your daughter Casey.

The events and reports that have been revealed through discovery do have negative results upon the case and in turn appear to implicate Casey. Upon each release of documents, it is your conclusion and claim that it is all the fault of someone or something else.

If your faith in Casey is so great, why do you not visit her? If Casey has nothing to hide, it shouldn't matter what is captured on video. Personally, I could not imagine seven months without seeing my daughters. However, if I knew one of them had taken my ability to even see my granddaughter, not to mention my granddaughter's life, I KNOW I could manage not seeing my daughter(s) as well.

What are you doing that is so "positive"? We know you are spending time reading our blogs, how is that productive? You are not visiting Casey. Are you looking for Zanny? Were your "suicide notes" a positive thing in your life?

Through all the devastating loss I have experienced, I have never once thought of taking my own life. My faith guided me through the difficult times just as it has the best of times. I also knew I had to be a mother to my children, a daughter, a sister, and a friend.

I have never, nor do I know of anyone who has made the comparison of the loss of a family member to that of "losing my keys, or my cell phone". Now we know where Casey's materialism came from. What a despicable statement. Even from you.

Furthermore, until the day justice is served for Caylee, this is one blogger that will continue on.

A Look Back On My Thoughts: "Cindy Craves The Spotlight" Original Posting November 20, 2008

My thoughts on the Casey Anthony case, before Caylee's remains were found.
First posting date: 11/20/2008

Cindy loves the media spotlight.
courtesy USA Today

I am anxiously awaiting the Anthony Family's presser regarding their "hard evidence" they have that beautiful Caylee Anthony is alive. It is supposed to take place "sometime this week".

If there is "hard evidence" this family has their mitts on, why in the hell have they not turned it over to Orange County's finest? Why is Caylee not at home already? It's Thursday already. Only two more days left in this week. How much longer can they wait?

Cindy contradicts herself each time she opens her mouth. From the first 911 calls, she stated Caylee was gone. She also stated that Casey had been missing as well, if you recall. Problem is Cindy, you knew Casey wasn't "missing", you just didn't know where she was. Cindy stated the car smelled like "a body in the damn car". Now, the smell is contributed to pizza, squirrels, other road kill, etc. Hell, renowned forensic scientist Henry Lee is stating now that the car was literally filled with garbage. (wondering if that little tidbit was a "leak" on Baez's behalf) Dr. Lee states there was "meat, cheese, frozen dinners, and a case of soda". Dr. Lee, famous forensic scientist, also known for the infamous O J Simpson trial, now on the Casey Anthony defense team, believes that lunchmeat, and frozen dinners are the cause of the decomposition smell in the car. Which, if you haven't heard, is still pungent after 4 and a half months. Who drives around with frozen dinners in their car? Oh, this is Casey Anthony I am speaking of, I forgot.

Cindy's other contradictions are that the family's focus has been on an "alive" Caylee from day one. Why the freak out over the decomp smell? Is your daughter in the habit of driving around with decomposing bodies in her car? No Cindy, you are in the medical profession, George is a former homicide detective, turned used car salesman, turned security officer. You both should know what decomposition smells like. I am in the medical field and I do. It is something you do not ever wish to smell. Once you do, you do not forget it.


Cindy stated two days ago "that until something concrete comes in from the "authorities", and not just speculation from someone else, this is what our focus is on." With focus meaning an "alive" Caylee. What are the "sightings" you are reporting each time a search is held? Have they been concrete? No. Just speculation. None of these sighting has proven any knowledge that Caylee is out there. So I wonder, what is the difference between your speculation and everyone related to the case and law enforcement's speculation?

Casey Anthony is NOT a victim. Stop saying she is, Cindy. Caylee is the only victim in this case. Cindy and George Anthony have been victimized by the acts their daughter, Casey, has committed.

Anyone find this picture as eerie as I? Who smiles while awaiting a first appearance in court, much less a bond hearing? I guess she liked the pink handcuffs. Makes me wonder what is really going on in that "mind" of Casey.

Something tells me this will be "the shot" for the movie preview. Please do not let there be a movie.

Amy Huizenga is a victim of Casey, as well. How soon you forget, Cindy, the day you called Amy in a frantic frenzy wanting to know the whereabouts of Casey. If not for Amy, who knows how long this saga would have went on before law enforcement was called. Cindy's version of this story doesn't sit well with me either. Cindy claims she found Amy's phone number on a piece of paper in the car after it was brought home from the tow-in lot. Casey made hundreds of text messages a day. Why would she have Amy's phone number on a piece of paper in her car when she would text her multiple times every single day. Hell, it was just that day, that Casey picked up Amy from the airport in Amy's car. Not being able to fit everyone returning with Amy from Puerto Rico in the car, Amy drove Casey back to Tony's apartment. She then returned to pick up the other friends from the airport. How convenient, on this day of days, Cindy contacts Amy within, at the most, 2 hours of her returning to Orlando and dropping Casey off at Tony's. Cindy admits she spoke to Casey on the phone during the 31 days. Cindy has said Casey was on a vacation, or at a conference for her bogus employer. But yet, again, on the 911 call, Cindy states Casey had been missing as well. The truth, we know now is Cindy had spoken to Casey, but had not known her whereabouts until the day of the 911 call, when Amy took Cindy to Tony's.

courtesy ABC

Cindy speaks of Casey's "mis-truths". That is sorta like being "kinda pregnant", either you are or you are not. You either tell the truth or you lie. A lie is a lie is a lie. You have done a fine job of raising liars. But hey, what can you expect, they learned from the best. And yes, Cindy, lying can be against the law. Your daughter is proof of it. There is also that little thing call perjury..remember that when you are on the stand.


So back to waiting for the press conference. I'm sure it will be cancelled as was the interview with Nancy Grace last Friday night, along with the first conference promised at the beginning of the week.

If you do have evidence, Cindy, why wait? Why wouldn't you want Caylee home with you. How sad your Christmas will be without her. I go through holidays without a close loved one of mine. It doesn't get easier and the first holidays alone are the worst. I suppose you can ease your pain by holding more press junkets.

Cindy on the Today Show

courtesy NBC

I realize you want to hold on to every ounce of hope that Caylee is alive. I get it. I really do. I have had one foot in your shoes. Not with a child, but with an adult. My mind raced day and night. As much as I wanted to hope for "life", I couldn't help but let my mind think of "death". I scanned each news broadcast every night just to see if an unknown body had been found. No, I didn't have media covering me, reporters nor microphones in my face 24/7. I had my city and county law enforcement working with me and my family. That was all. There are small similarities, but yes, my story is majorly different. However, anyone who is missing a family member, a loved one, shows some kind of emotion. Mostly a heart heavy pleading for information, a breaking down of emotions. Not rude insults to those who care and want to help. I have yet to hear you plead to anyone, someone, even if it were Zenaida, to bring Caylee home. Only a "She's out there." "She's alive." If you are really having people watched, and know who they are and where Caylee is, why in the living hell you are in, have you not brought that baby home? I would give my life if I were in your shoes if it meant my child would be back home with family and live a full life.

I pray for Caylee every night. I feel she is already with the angels. I also pray for you, Cindy and George.
My prayers for Casey are that she will learn to tell the truth. That Casey will tell the location of little Caylee's remains so that she may rest in peace.

This beautiful little girl will always be forever young and live in many of our hearts for a long time to come. A unique tight knit group of people who have taken Caylee in as our own. We want closure for this as well.

Casey, you have affected more people than you intended. You did a selfish act by taking that precious girls life. What you are probably unaware of though, is you have also made thousands of people hurt, cry, and join together in the name of Caylee. You are the loser in all of this. How do you not see that?

I am all for the death penalty, but in your case, I am undecided. I believe death for you is an easy way out. I can only imagine what Caylee went through. I think your punishment should be life in prison, without parole. That would give you each day of the remainder of your miserable life to remember what you have done.

But something tells me you are still only thinking of yourself.